this feeling

hindi sa hindi ko alam.
ayaw ko lang pagisipan. pagtuonan ng pansin.

this feeling. itong nararamdaman ko ngayon.
a while ago it was devastatung me. like hell.
am trying to find it out.
but it just wears out. by itself.

ahh. nevermind.

there. i just have to cut this entry short.
my dad awoke in the middle of the night.
and is putting me to bed.

and so the feeling ends here.
but my brain still wants to find out.
damn i hate this feeling.
this sad feeling.